I'm looking for direction and this morning I knew I need to going to God for that direction. He's the one who told me I will be an EMT. Not told me to do it, but flat out said, "That's what you will be" when I read an article that mentioned every household in America should be within 6 minutes of an ambulance or fire service. I don't know if you believe in God and Jesus, I do. He's the only one who can give me peace and show me where to go in life.
So many people in EMS have told me I have to be a paramedic. Why? They keep saying it will make me more desirable. I heard that over and over and seen it when my own county won't give me shifts. I love being an EMT. Wouldn't change it for the world. I've even tried the paramedic thing. Well, medic school anyway. I had no desire, didn't want it and should have quit right from the beginning instead of wasting my time and gas. Don't any of you say I wasted my instructor's time. He wasn't there most of the time. Class was cancelled a LOT, we got out way early a LOT, practicals were not seen an important, registry wasn't taken seriously enough, lots of things. I wrote a post on that long ago.
No, I like being an EMT. Right now I'm driving 100 miles each way. There are counties closer, but they are small, don't need me right now. I will be applying at the end of October to a lot of places I didn't know I was within 50 miles of.
I want to stay an EMT and do something else on the side. My husband has done the computer thing. He wants to blacksmith. It's made him some money, but he 's goingback to school for a skill that he can actually do and make a living while doing the fun stuff on the side, like selling his blacksmithing on Etsy. We both want to make soap. Lye soap. I'm not afraid to try anything. I picked up a book one time called Pretty Little Things. It teaches how to put objects and pictures and well...anything between glass and how to solder it together. I love it. Done it and need to get a hotter iron or one of those mini torches, ...babbling. Thing is I love being an EMT. Can't say it enough, but it's what I do, not who I am. That's been a hard reality. I let it take over me and it comes between my and my husband, my home, my life, my relationships, and my God.
The below is taken from a summary of Focus on the Family's The Truth Project. It's about El Qanna, Jealous God. God is jealous when we let other worldly things come between me and Him. Think of a marriage. One half of the couple starts spending too much time at work, with friends, on the computer, the list could go on and on. Something has come between them and is tearing them apart. I have let my personal habits come between me and God, me and life, habits that have kept me from blogging, doing things I enjoy and would rather be doing, being productive.
"Dr. Tackett makes it clear that we cannot truly know ourselves
until we have begun to know God in the fullness and richness of
His multifaceted nature and character – not only as the God of
mercy and grace, but also as the God who is a consuming fire,
jealous for the purity of the covenant relationship (El Qanna).
When this knowledge dawns upon us, we can expect two
things to happen. First, the revelation of God’s character will,
like a mirror, reveal things to us about ourselves, so that we,
along with the prophet Isaiah, are compelled to cry, “Woe is
me, for I am undone!” (Isaiah 6:5). But then secondly, as He raises
us out of our despair and shows us who we are and who we can
be in Him, we will be granted the gift of a new name – a whole
new concept of our being, our identity, and our purpose in life
with God. Once again, the fruit of this experience will be personal transformation."
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